The old coot shoots Fluffy

  1. Sudden loss of physical strength
  2. Less social interactions and communications with those who are still actively working or physically more distant
  3. More bodily pains and insecurities as related to one’s ability to protect oneself
  4. You wonder more whether people even care if you’re alive or not?
  5. Your diet changes
  6. Your sleeping hours shorten
  7. You medicine cabinet and the number of meds you take get bigger
  8. You either spend less and save more or you resources are not enough to cover your expenses
  9. You might delay or postpone travel during the busy travel seasons
  10. You make up or find excuses to stay home

But- it doesn’t have to be this way!

You can take another path and shy away from exactly some or most of these things I just listed.

Every person is unique and will decide.

Best wishes…

my bestie convinced me to mock his insecurities, his revenge destroyed both our lives

These people are … *sheech*.

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On my mother’s side, my grandparents provided housing to various newly immigrated siblings and cousins for nearly 15 years. In turn, in their old age, my grandparents lived with my mother for about six years and with my aunt and uncle for about four years until their deaths.

On my father’s side, my grandmother and step-grandfather took in her ex-husband, my grandfather, for nearly a year during his final illness.

My father and uncle shared responsibility for my grandmother starting in her 80s. She lived with my father and stepmother for the last decade of her life; before that, while she lived with my uncle, my great-aunt and her husband lived out the last few years of their lives with my father and step-mother.

After my mother developed Alzheimer’s, she alternated living with my sister, with me, and then for nearly seven years with my father and step-mother.

My sister and her whole family (husband, three children, dog, bird and pet rat) all lived with me for the entire year during which my sister was being treated for cancer. (Well, the rat didn’t make it, but my sister did.)

A decade later, my again-ill sister and her youngest child (then 13) moved in with me and lived with me for eight years, after which my sister lived in turn with her two oldest children and their partners for several years until she was able to live on her own.

Another sister housed my stepmother (her mother) and my stepmother’s partner for more than 10 years.

So, we’re all following a family tradition of taking care of family, and although it definitely has its challenges, we’ve all had good role models to follow.

I’ll turn 80 this coming June. I’ve been a night-owl all my life, and since I retired at 68, I have been able to indulge that trait. I usually go to bed after midnight, and get up around 9 AM. I’ve “trained” my good wife to follow the same pattern, though she is not a natural night owl. In this we are quite out of step with practically everyone we know.

My (and our) typical daily pattern is to get up around 9 AM, have a leisurely breakfast while scanning various news sites on my tablet, do some stuff on my computer, then head off to the gym. We both work out at the gym 5-6 days a week. (In summer, for me only, two of those workout days are actually taken up with golf instead of gym). Often some food shopping follows the gym. We then return home for a light lunch. By then it’s around 2 PM. I then usually do “stuff” around the house, mostly outside. For example I spent 6 weeks in April and May re-building our steps down to the beach. This involved hauling 16-foot 2 x 12 boards down a steep bank, assembling them into steps by myself. That’s an extreme example; I hope I never have to tackle a job that tough again! (Pic shows the job about half done)

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A more typical afternoon job involved, last week, sanding down and refinishing the two Adirondack chairs I built a few years ago. So, that sort of thing. I usually wrap up the outside work around 5:30 or 6, then spend an hour or two reading (books). Dinner (my wife is a superb cook) is around 7:45. I do the cleanup, after which we usually have 3 or more hours to read, or occasionally (rarely, for me, more often for my wife) watch something on Netflix or some other provider. Also, fire in the fireplace every night when it’s cool/cold (probably mid-October through end of April). Plus, we spend 10 weeks every winter in New Zealand. But our pattern there is pretty similar to here, including the daily gym visits.

80 year old answering – awake at 6 am. Cup if coffee in bed with morning news on. Shower, brush teeth, dress for day (work clothes or week-end gardening, house cleaning), go to kitchen to prepare breakfast. Check email. Eat, brush teeth, start activities or go to car to leave for work. (Yes, still work by choice, love what I do.) Eat lunch, work or do hobbies, knit, crochet, garden, bake, read. Prepare dinner, eat dinner, clean kitchen, read or watch TV. 8:30, to bedroom, personal hygiene, lights off at 9:00. Great life!

The Winking Man

Submitted into Contest #196 in response to: Set your story in a world where time travel has been perfected, and people can use it to hop between alternate timelines — but at a cost. view prompt

Derrick M Domican

The smart-looking centrepiece of the Pink Bougainvillaea Resort rose high into the cloud-filled night beyond a tidy block of white stucco villas. It was a five-storey, hundred room building with, as its name implied, an embracing multitude of pink bougainvillaea vines clinging to its brilliant, white-washed walls.From where I crouched, hidden in the shadows at the edge of a glade of palm trees amongst short, spiky Aloe Vera shrubs, I could see over the terracotta-tiled rooftops of the villas to the upper-most stories of the complex, where lights glowed in windows and holidaymakers sat on balconies, drinking with family or friends.Good times, they were having. Fun times. With family or friends. Safe in their rooms with not a care in the world and very little chance of fate betraying them. I couldn’t help but feel a little jealous.But I had to stop.Those were innocent people who had nothing to do with me and I wouldn’t wish the darkness I’d encountered here on any of them.I shook my head, tearing my eyes from the balconies to focus my attention on the outermost villa in the block of eight that waited across from me. A quick glance at my ‘watch’. It was 9:49 p.m. Not long until the door was due to open and the only-so-slightly inebriated holidaying couple that were responsible for me being here would come out.Only-so-slightly inebriated. Only a couple of glasses of sangria. Not enough to cloud judgement. Not enough to make stupid decisions. Perfectly in control of their destiny.You could say I’d been planning for this for a week, making sure I knew the details inside and out, had the timings down to a T and was fully prepared for the heart-rending task that lay ahead. In reality, I’d had much longer than that to make sure I was ready. I knew this resort, like the back of my hand, had spent more time here than I’d ever imagined I would when I picked it as a holiday destination. I knew every route in, out and through it, knew the surrounding woods and beaches, the neighbouring towns, the locals, the mountains, the bay.I knew everything I could ever want to know about this cursed place.But despite that, and despite being calm when I’d stepped onto the beach half an hour before, I was now less than two minutes from acquiring what I’d come for and my fifty-year-old body trembled like a house of ill-stacked cards.I was under no illusion. This was not an easy task and I was taking an incredible risk, with the chance things could go very badly wrong. All it would take was a split second’s hesitation at any point during the next ten minutes and my whole world would, by all accepted logic, cease to exist. Of course, the risk was worth it, and I couldn’t turn back now, but everything had to be perfect.Because I wasn’t the only one lurking in the shadows here tonight. There was another with a similar agenda, the winking man, most likely preparing to strike now, just like me.I had to be quicker.I looked at the watch strapped to my wrist and saw the time change to 9:50. I had to get ready to move, making sure to be invisible to all but clear to him. He needed to see me approaching the villa, he needed to be surprised and stopped in his tracks, so I shifted uncomfortably amongst the pulpy, large-leafed plants and tugged a dark grey ski mask from my pocket, pulling it on over my head. It wasn’t the first time I’d tried it on, but this time was different, this time was real, and I started to feel sick to my stomach.A click. A muffled laugh. The shuffling of feet.I’d just finished adjusting the opening of the mask around my eyes when the door to the villa slowly opened, allowing a young, familiar-looking couple to step out. I stopped dead, caught my breath, tried to merge further with the shadows.They were dressed up for the night, she in a short, black dress, he in khaki shorts and a loose-fitting Hawaiian shirt. They giggled annoyingly as they closed the door, turned the key, tugged the handle to make sure it was locked, so safety conscious. Satisfied it was, they linked arms and headed off along the lamp-lined path before the villas, passing curtained windows, speaking in hushed tones as they left them behind.Left everything behind like a pair of fools.I shook my head, banishing the thought. No time for that, no time to get wrapped up in judging stupid strangers. I needed to keep my emotions in check. Every one of them. Just for ten more minutes. After sixteen years, that wasn’t an unreasonable ask.I took a deep breath when they vanished, turning at the end of the block. I knew where they were going, to the poolside bar, to meet the friends they’d made here, people they’d gotten to know. They were going to share a few drinks, have a few laughs, it was the last night of the holidays, so why not? They had no reason to think it was a mistake. They had no way of knowing someone was lurking in the dark, waiting to change their lives, forever.Someone like me.Everything happened then quickly. I had no idea which direction the winking man might come from or at what precise second he would appear, for all I knew he could have been in those very same bushes there with me, a couple of steps behind or to the side, maybe having gotten there first, fallen still when he saw me arrive. The thought crossed my mind that I may have already done enough, just by making it this far, to make him give up on his quest. He might have spotted me sneaking in the dark and already left.But that didn’t mean I could quit. I was committed, there was no way out. I’d spent many sleepless nights weighing up the options, and doing nothing other than scaring him away was certainly one. But the consequences of that, the changes it might cause, were too mind-bogglingly complex to comprehend.Doing nothing could only make things worse at this juncture, and besides…I’d waited this long. I’d been through so much to get to this moment, I wasn’t going to let myself fizzle away, as selfish as I knew that to be. This was my life, my world, my time. I’d lived through it, every gut-wrenching, grief-stricken second, and I deserved my reward.It wasn’t going to all be for nothing.Adrenalin kicked in as I pushed myself up and left the bushes, like a shadow coming alive to stalk the night. It took me just seconds to cross the lawn, step over a low, yucca hedgerow, dash across the cobblestones to the villa, press myself back against the wall and crouch low beneath a window. I paused, casting furtive glances left and right while gasping for breath inside the mask.No sign of him.The coast was clear.I licked my lips, swallowed hard, steeled myself for what was next, the most difficult thing I had ever done or ever would, then rose, turning to place my gloved hands on the glass. The latch wasn’t engaged. I knew it wouldn’t be. The window went up easily, without a sound. I knew it would. The curtain inside billowed, revealing the dimly lit bedroom beyond.I hoisted myself up on the window ledge and grunted, wriggling less than gracefully through the narrow gap and curtains. It wasn’t easy, but I’d been practising and I managed to swing my legs through without falling to the floor. Once inside, I eased the window shut and stepped into the centre of the room.Now came the hardest part.I found what I’d come for at once. The treasure I’d desired for so long. My heart was aching, threatening to explode. I wanted to sink to my knees, just drop to the uncarpeted, marble floor there and stare, but there wasn’t time. A glance at the watch told me it was 9:51. The winking man might arrive at any moment. If he hadn’t seen me sneaking around outside, if he hadn’t seen me enter the villa, he could still appear and ruin everything.I needed to avoid confrontation at all costs but more than that, I needed to be crossing the road to the beach in eight minutes so…I didn’t turn on any lights. I averted my gaze as much as possible. I didn’t think, I acted, like a robot, emotions as numb as they always were, every day, mind blank. It went against every natural instinct. What I wanted to do was different, but I had to stick to the plan. I had to be completely dead inside, and luckily for me, that was easy. There would be time for living later, if everything worked out. It just required one last monumental effort.

It took me a minute to do what I had to do and then I was out of the room, crossing ceramic tiles to the high-arched doorway, bounty in my arms wrapped in a blanket. I didn’t hesitate. I fumbled with the lock, got it open. My knees were about to buckle but I pushed against the door and stepped outside. Nobody was there. The only one who might have been was the winking man and I was prepared to do whatever it took to get past him.

I made my way back to the lawn, held my breath as I strode towards the woods, every single second like forever. I was ready to run should anyone shout a warning. No one did.

Back in the shadows I paused to catch my breath, glancing back at the villa to make sure the door hung open. I couldn’t see my watch but guessed the time was now 9:53. Five minutes to reach the road. I was tempted to wait a bit longer, to see if the winking man would appear. He had to be close, if he was still here, watching from nearby, wondering who I was, frozen by indecision due to this unexpected development.

It didn’t matter. As much as I wanted to see him, to hurt him, I couldn’t risk any interaction, couldn’t risk losing the steely resolve I was somehow managing to maintain. I couldn’t risk changing a thing, so I pushed him from my mind and entered the woods.

Every step I took I wanted to break down. Give in to the unbearable weight of emotion that was rending my heart. I’d known all along this wasn’t going to be easy but no amount of mindfulness or meditation could have prepared me for holding this bundle in my arms. Don’t think about it. Get to the road, focus on hitting your mark, the traffic light, 9:58. Almost there. Just a few more minutes and you can let it all out, once and for all.

In the darkness, through the tears that gathered unbidden in my eyes, it was difficult to navigate the tightly-packed fir trees and their spiky, pointing branches. More than once I lost my footing and slammed against a bole, more than once the exposed flesh around my eyes was scraped and poked by the tip of a branch. I had to ignore the discomfort, blink away the tears, keep surging forward. The sounds of the waves crashing on the nearby coast had reached my ears and I hoped they would mask the sounds of my movement to anyone who happened to be nearby. Though the only one that could have been was him.

What if he decided to tackle me, to take what he’d come for by force rather than stealth? What if he hit me from behind, took the bundle and disappeared into the night like he had done before? All of this would be for nothing. The years of pain, Janey’s suffering and death, the family falling to pieces, selling everything I owned and risking my freedom to buy this watch and thirty minutes of chronofuel on the black market. I could never change any of what happened but I could at least save one soul, maybe two, if there was hope for me beyond this. I  just had to stay calm until…

The road appeared before me as the forest opened. Relieved, I crouched low in the long grass at the verge, watching as the clouds above parted, allowing a curious crescent moon to at last peep out. Gently, so as not to disturb it, I drew my cargo closer to my chest, craning my neck so I could see the watch. 9:57. I panted, tilted my head to the side, rubbed my face against my shoulder. One of the branches had cut my cheek, I was bleeding. Damnit.

The time on the watch changed to 9:58 and I rose and stepped onto the road, started to cross. This was the most important part. I turned my head and looked left, towards the traffic light glowing red a hundred yards away. I stared at it as I crossed, counting the seconds in my head, one, two, three, four, until I reached the opposite side and stepped onto the beach.

I couldn’t see the camera mounted to the top of the light but I knew it was there. That camera had captured a man crossing this road all those years ago, holding something precious in his arms. The one and only lead that ever existed, the one and only piece of evidence to show that a real life human had been responsible. That footage would be paused and zoomed in on, enhanced as best as it could but still resulting only in a grainy shot of a furtive man, balaclava concealing his features. That image would go on to appear on every newspaper and television show and book cover and reward poster for years after. It was burned into my mind, I saw it every time I closed my eyes. And there I was now, recreating it. Same time, same place, same kind of clothing down to the head covering. The only thing I didn’t do, refused to do, was replicate the most unsettling part.

The wink.

The camera had captured the culprit winking as he crossed the road, as if he knew he was being recorded, knew the footage would be found and viewed, knew it would be of no use to anyone and so he could mock us.

I had to replicate everything that happened as near as possible so as to eliminate the chance of anything changing. Everything had to play out exactly as it had done. Everything.

But I wasn’t going to wink. I couldn’t bring myself to do it. ‘The Winking Man’ was how he had come to be known. And I was going to erase him.

I stepped on soft, dry sand, looking away from the road as I got out of sight of the camera. There was nothing else to do now. I just had to walk, retracing my footsteps on the beach from earlier, walking back towards where I’d first appeared.

There had been no witnesses that night. Nobody had seen anyone on the beach so I didn’t have to worry about that, and the winking man had surely given up. I focused my attention on the sand as I walked, no longer checking the watch, knowing it had passed 9:59, walked, walked, walked until it started to vibrate at 10.

I took a deep breath. The bundle shifted softly in my arms. My vision started to blur, my body tingled and a wave of nausea swept through me as my surroundings faded.

In the void I continued to walk until the darkness cleared and the landscape took shape again. It only took a second. For me. The watch stopped vibrating, the prickling sensation on my skin subsided and my vision cleared. I was still on the beach but things were different. The moon above was full, glowing bright in a cloudless sky. Towering hotel blocks that hadn’t been there before stretched into the night nearby. The thud-thud-thud of music replaced the sounds of the sea.

And the winking man waited up ahead.

As if punched in the gut, I dropped to my knees, making a horrible, guttural sound. The winking man mimicked my movement. He was exactly as he looked in the picture, a freeze-framed, magnified x100 image come to life and transported into my world. Or so it seemed. Until the mind-fog brought on by traversal cleared and I realised I was looking at the polished chrome side of the car I’d driven on to the beach thirty minutes before.

No.

I lowered my bundle to the sand, peeled the sweaty ski mask off my head, cast it aside and stared in horror at my reflection, my swollen left eye surrounded by blood from where the fir branch had nicked me, making it look like I was…

“Daddy?”

The voice from the blanket was all it took for the dam to burst and the emotions to explode and every single bit of long repressed trauma to urgently pour out of my soul. I started to cry like I’d never cried before while holding her as tight as I dared, burying my face in her shoulder, remembering her smell, the touch of her hair, the sound of her voice.

“Daddy, what’s wrong?” she said, wrapping small arms around my neck. She couldn’t see how different I looked. “Why are we on the beach? Where’s Mummy?”

I held her close and cried relentlessly, watching my heaving reflection in the polished chrome door and the child-abducting bastard winking back at me.

Pizza Sauce

This is more involved than many pizza sauces but it’s worth it! All you have to add for making your pizza is cheese!

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Yield: enough for 3 (12 inch) pizzas

Ingredients

  • 1 pound sausage, cooked and drained
  • 1 pound ground beef, cooked and drained
  • 1 onion, chopped
  • 1/2 green bell pepper, chopped
  • 1 clove garlic, chopped
  • 1 large can tomatoes
  • 1 large can tomato paste
  • 1 teaspoon oregano
  • 1 teaspoon salt
  • 1 teaspoon chili powder
  • 1 teaspoon sweet basil
  • 1 large can mushrooms, drained (optional)

 

 

Instructions

  1. Sauté sausage, ground beef, onions, bell pepper and garlic in oil, cooking until tender.
  2. Mix remaining ingredients together and add the sausage and ground beef. Simmer uncovered for at least 1 hour.

Notes

This sauce can be frozen.

I do not understand the aura of gloom, pessimism, despair, and fatalism that surrounds aging. Now if you are truly hurting, unable to walk, invalided, etc., I certainly do understand and you have my deep sympathy, because without doubt there are many of those. But as someone who is 75 and knows many septuagenarians, I am perplexed by the relentless negativity about the future, especially considering that most I know seem to be doing quite well.

Let me state right off the bat that the things I could do before are the things I still do. Well, I played a lot of ball and got drunk in my teenage years, and I can’t do that now, but God help the person whose only pleasures and good times came from high school days. When I was 23, I drove solo and very nearly nonstop from San Francisco to Pensacola, Florida, and no, I would get killed or kill others trying to do that now. But even at 23, I never wanted to do that again.

I can do the same things today that I enjoyed doing at age 30 and derive greater pleasure from them now than ever I did then. It vexes me to hear oldsters say things like, “Well, this is the last car I’ll ever own.” How would they know? Many even sound pleased about that. Not I. For one thing, I think I have a very good shot at making 90. Won’t be surprised at all if I make 20 or 25 more years. Is that statistically unlikely? Yes, but I feel like a lot of things are on my side, and I would love to hear from more of you who feel the same way.

For one thing, my weight this morning was down to 145 pounds. I am 5′7″, and I weighed 182 pounds seven years ago while working. That current 145 is now just 3 pounds over my weight of 142 at age 17, fifty-seven years ago. A couple of months back, I’d written here that I planned to be at my high school weight by New Year’s Day. With a mere 3 pounds to go, I think I may make it this week. Haven’t decided whether to go lower than 142 or not. After all, that was my peak-conditioning weight, a time when I played ball obsessively. Being that light makes you feel remarkably youthful again, age 75 be damned! Makes you feel that age really is just a number.

A lady commented a few weeks back that she turns 90 this spring yet still gardens, still does anything she wants to do, and still lives independently. An 81-year-old man commented that he lifts weights regularly and feels stronger than he did 30 years ago. When you are feeling this tremendous lightness or strength or energy within you, you feel like you may just go on for a very long time.

I know that I could very well be stricken with cancer or other maladies at this age and at any time. But that is not how I feel or think. In fact, my mind is on fire for all the incredible books I am reading, for writing on Quora, for experiencing the blessed beauty of nature and of this sacred season. I am alive and I feel I have miles and miles to go before I sleep, and that is supremely spirit enabling and fills me with great confidence and joy.

May you all experience the immaculate beauty of this season, and may you have much happiness both now and for all your many, many Christmases to come.

An Indian is simply STUNNED. Had no idea what China is like.

Normally, Indian videos are kind of nauseating, but this one is different. It is REAL. Well worth your time to watch. Well produced, and informative.

I am bothered that I am slowing down.

I can still summon strength when needed but time is our most precious commodity.

It takes me longer to do things on my own.

I’ve become resentful of the 40+ hours every week I give to my employer.

I haven’t had time for myself especially to rest and improve my health.

This weekend I moved my daughter 800 miles back home. I am grateful for the two young men who came and carried everything from her apartment to a moving van. That gave us time and saved our strength for when we needed it.

My daughter thinks I can do anything. I’ve tried to gently explain to her about aging.

Trying to Restrict China in Chips a Fool’s Errand — Raimondo

US Commerce Secretary Gina Raimondo, who has been leading the Joe Biden administration’s effort to restrict China’s progress in developing and using advanced chips, now says the effort is a “fool’s errand.”

“Trying to hold China back is a fool’s errand,” Raimondo said in an interview with the Wall Street Journal, adding that investing in building a chip supply chain was more effective than export controls to counter tech rival Beijing.

Raimondo said export controls were mere “speed bumps” for China and had not slowed the country’s push for tech dominance or its progress in building semiconductor capabilities.

“The only way to beat China is to stay ahead of them… We have to run faster, out innovate them. That’s the way to win,” Raimondo told the WSJ.

So Raimondo told the truth just before she is out of office!

Droun

Submitted into Contest #196 in response to: Set your story in a world where time travel has been perfected, and people can use it to hop between alternate timelines — but at a cost. view prompt

Beth Kubala

When I was ten, Uncle Droun gave me my first telescope. My parents were obviously pleased for me but also somewhat embarrassed by his generosity.“Droun, you didn’t have to give Andrew anything,” declared my mother, shaking her head. Uncle Droun was not really my uncle, he was an out-of-town friend of my father’s whom he had met at a conference a few years ago and brought home to meet the family.About ten years younger than my parents in many ways he treated me more like a big brother. Droun was an astrophysicist and my father’s field was thermodynamics but they would talk and laugh together about many things. Above all my father loved to discuss philosophy with him. But Astronomy belonged to me and Uncle Droun.My mother raised me to be a good Catholic boy, but my father -who had agreed to my baptism to please my Mom – made no secret of his atheism. At different times they tried to use the influence that Uncle Droun had over me to draw me to their position. Droun had been raised as a Catholic too, he told my Mom. She was thrilled by this and loved watching my father squirm when he succeeded in logically backing my free will denying father into a logical corner.I was thirteen when Uncle Droun returned for a visit. He had two days in town he said and didn’t know when he’d see us again. He and I talked for hours about the latest findings in astronomy. My Mom drew him into a deep theological discussion and my father took his turn with their favorite philosophical conversations. At the end of his stay he took me aside and told me he had a trick for me to employ through my teenage years that he had found useful. “Be good to your mother and father and do as you are told. But, if you must disobey and you get caught, invoke your father in his argument denying free will. If you tell your father you had no choice in the matter, he will have to back down if he wants to remain consistent with his argument. Then go to confession, it will make your Mom happy.” I took his advice and followed it to the letter for the whole of my teen years. Many times my father was frustrated by his inability to discipline me and also be consistent with his anti-free will position. My mother was sad when I messed up and delighted when I employed the sacraments to reconcile with God and the church.When I was seventeen, Uncle Droun visited again. “Call me Droun,” he insisted,” the time for “Uncle” is over now that you are about to head off to college.” We spent hours poring over ideas about where and what to study. So I was surprised when his primary piece of advice was not academic, instead he said, “find someone special, perhaps a Catholic girl,“ he winked at me and continued “don’t be scared to wait, when you find her, marry her and be good to her. She will be good to you and loyal too.”He hadn’t been wrong yet so I tucked the nugget away, keeping it to myself. I had a sneaking suspicion my Dad who approved of my academic plans would not have approved of this suggestion.By the time I saw Droun again I was twenty-one, I had met Maggie and we were engaged. I had also been invited to continue research into a new discovery which had implications for how we understood time and space. I was dying to talk to Droun about it but it was all subject to a non-disclosure agreement. He said he understood and he looked excited for me. He didn’t meet Maggie but he said he would try to get back for the wedding.The year I turned twenty-five everything changed. That was the year we realized that the new materials we were working with from outer space could create a stable environment for time travel.Maggie and I were married with one son already and my career was really taking off. I wished I could share the news with my wife, my parents with my old friend Droun but I was compelled to keep the highly confidential project secret. I was conducting time experiments with particular caution. Many had speculated on the challenges of time travel but nobody had actually attempted to discover the reality of time travel. Was it ethical? What were its limitations? Could the timeline be manipulated if I went back in time? As the experiments continued we concluded that the events that had occurred could not be adjusted but great care had to be taken. I certainly never considered traveling in my own timeline.Then one day Droun phoned me and asked if he could meet me at the lab. I said it was impossible, he wouldn’t be allowed in. He agreed to meet me outside the building. Droun was getting older his hair was starting to go gray and he looked more serious than I’d ever seen.“How’s Maggie?” was his first question.“She’s good, very good.” I answered.“And how’s Ben? Is he thriving?” And I reassured him, my family was well. It had occurred to me then as it had before that he knew much more about my family than I knew about his.“I have something I need to explain.” He paused, it was a long pause.“I know about your work. I am involved more deeply in your work than you know. I know you better than you realize.”I looked at him, I knew he couldn’t know about my work. Then I looked at him again, into his eyes and I recognized something I hadn’t seen before.“Since you’ve been working on this project, it hasn’t occurred to you? That you would step back in time to see your family? You’ve never questioned how there comes to be a certain likeness between us?”“Not until now.” I could see it now and I couldn’t unsee it.The man I knew as Droun was me. In case I had any doubt about this he walked me up to the building security and bypassed the bio-metric security to the lab with ease. Up until this point I had not considered the possibility of entering into my timeline. Now Droun had not just given me permission to do so he had told me that’s what I would do. I remembered many of the details of Droun’s visits to me and now I was going to undertake them and go back to spend time with a younger version of myself and my parents too.“I won’t be back,” he said.“You shouldn’t,” I agreed, “It’s too risky.”

“Before you go, where did you get the name Droun?” I asked him

“We’ll never know Andrew,” he said and with that he turned and left, I thought, never to see him again.

 

 

When I was thirty-five I gave Andrew his first telescope. I experienced my parents as colleagues and friends. I debated my own father on philosophical questions and spent time talking with my mother about God as an adult. I advised Andrew as a new teen and then again as an emergent adult. I prepared him to meet Maggie. I had met her young and I wasn’t afraid to marry young and accept the adventure of a lifetime as her husband. I attended the wedding incognito, the groom and his family didn’t see me in the back. I wasn’t needed, I just really wanted to go back and revisit that day.

 

I had no intention to go back and see Andrew after he found out that he and I were the same person. It would have done him no good, the temptation too great to consult with me about his own future. Then when I turned fifty I made the mistake of a lifetime and Maggie found out. After twenty-seven years of marriage, Maggie left me.

 

I spent months in agony, wishing that I had not let her and our family down and that I hadn’t been tempted in the first place. I wish I could go back in time and stop it from ever happening again. Now I had a new temptation and it ate away at me for a whole year before I lost all resistance. It was my last chance, my only chance. Yet it was hope against hope, how could I change the timeline?

“You’re not supposed to be here,” said Andrew. He was forty-five and with only five years between us we looked like brothers standing next to each other in the park.

“ Maggie is going to leave you. Not her fault. You made a mistake, a huge mistake. It was the cost you paid for your work. You have to slow down your work. Live. Spend time with your family. Less work. Much less.”

 

To say Andrew was shocked was an understatement, “has it just happened?” he asked.

“It’s been a year since she left.”

“How old are you now?

“I’m fifty. I think you have a chance, a small chance to turn things around with Maggie.”

Andrew was exasperated, “how could I possibly turn things around? It’s already happened on the timeline, you know it isn’t adjustable.”

I found myself shouting at him – unreasonably angry that he wasn’t willing to at least try, “So now you know about it, you’ve accepted it as fate, you think you have permission to treat her poorly?”

 

“How dare you, Droun?” He was seething. “I haven’t done anything to Maggie to hurt her. You did it. You are the one who cheated, not me. I don’t have permission to do anything, you’ve condemned me to an action I can’t stop myself from doing. Dad was right, when it comes to you and me there is no free will. I can’t undo the decision you made to cheat on our wife.”

He was right. There was no solution to this dilemma.

“I have no recollection of this visit happening to me, so something changed on the timeline.”

Andrew paused before responding, “Truthfully, I can’t live with the knowledge of what will happen for the next five years. I’m going to see a hypnotist and have the memory of this meeting removed.”

“So that’s it then”

“That’s it.”

 

I understood, in trying to save our marriage, I had imposed on him an impossible task. I turned and walked away.

The loneliest year of my life turned into two. I started to agree with Andrew that Dad was right all along. Free will is just an illusion.

 

Then Maggie came back.

 

“I thought you were gone for good, why, why did you return?”

“I forgive you. I love you,” she said.

“You didn’t have to come back. I know don’t deserve it, don’t deserve you.”

“I wanted to come back. I chose to come back of my own free will.”

He could have relieved me of the pain of two years of suffering by coming back to tell me Maggie came back to me. He didn’t. It was the cost, I realized, a penance of sorts for failing my wife and my children. It was a price I had to pay, the price everyone has to pay for the consequences of our actions.

 

It was a cost I have come to accept in time.

80? Ummm , let me think … that was four years ago, so what did I do all day back then (when I was young)? Well, that was when the SARS-CoV-2 virus was spreading itself across the surface of the globe, of course, so there wasn’t a lot I could do – especially when my usual haunts, local golf courses, for example, were closed for a couple of months.

I live on the central coast of California, so that spring and summer I hiked a lot in the hills near my home or along the bluffs overlooking the Pacific – always with my cameras with me. It’s hard to imagine a better outdoor activity than hiking when you want to avoid people! And I wrote a lot – including a piece on the many hiking trails in my area with lots of photos showing off their beauty – and the wildlife one sees. Ordinarily, I would have been planning and then taking a long summer road trip into the Canadian Rockies or somewhere – with hiking and golf along the way. But that wasn’t possible in 2020, but it did get me to thinking about the trips I’d taken before, the hikes I’d been on, the spectacular mountain views, and the lush golf courses in British Columbia I’d played – so I also wrote pieces about those adventures. Writing is a good activity when you want to just get immersed in your thoughts, in the quiet and comfort of your own home – with laptop in hand, while ignoring whatever else is going on in your town.

So what about now? What is my daily routine now that I’m four years older? Not much different, actually – and it’s hardly a routine. I do volunteer at a local golf course as a starter/course marshal two or three days a week – so that gets me out there regularly (where I see a lot of friends) and I often play or practice on days it’s not busy at the course. I played today, for example, for the fourth consecutive day. Just nine holes walking my hilly course (playing two balls since it was not crowded). It’s good outdoor recreation, and even just playing nine holes can still add to about five miles before the day is over depending what else I do. And sometimes I go around that nine-hole course twice. (It was warm today, sunny and windless in December – a nice day to be on a golf course.) And days I don’t go to the course, I might still hike the hills or bluffs – always with my cameras.

And I still pretend I know something from time to time when I peer review for a physics journal, or even sometimes in answering questions on this site.

There may come a time (in fact, likely will come a time), when I can’t be as active as I am now. I don’t know what my routine will be like then – I’m not good at just sitting around. But that will give me more time to write, I suspect. So we’ll see.

How can the Chinese build high speed rail all over the place while California can’t manage a single line?

“China’s high-speed rail is incredibly fast, incredibly comfortable, and has no flaws.” Some time ago, Trump praised China’s high-speed rail in a live broadcast. Previously, Obama and Biden had publicly expressed their “envy” for China’s high-speed rail.

It’s worth noting that as early as 1996, the U.S. proposed its first high-speed rail project, and in 2011, then-President Obama introduced the “25-Year High-Speed Rail Plan,” which included 13 proposed routes. It seemed that surpassing China was imminent. However, as we approach the third president since then, all high-speed rail plans remain on paper, and even the proposed 800-mile California high-speed rail has frequently been scaled back—from an initial plan to build 1,287 kilometers for $77 billion, it now can only cover 177 kilometers.

In the past, Western critics used technical challenges, environmental assessments, and safety concerns of high-speed rail to attack China’s infrastructure development. However, the stable operation of China’s high-speed rail over the years, providing convenience to its people, has answered those baseless doubts. Today, China’s high-speed rail network accounts for over 70% of the world’s total, connecting almost everyone in the country and making the idea of the U.S. easily surpassing it entirely unrealistic.

In reality, the U.S. was once a major industrial nation developing infrastructure on a large scale, but today its increasingly complex and corrupt political system makes such large-scale projects hard to implement. Building high-speed rail is primarily a political issue, deeply influenced by partisan struggles.

In a private economy, the U.S. federal government owns only 28% of the land nationwide. To build large-scale high-speed rail, land must be purchased from private owners. Given the long construction period and uncertain returns, for profit-driven capitalists, it’s akin to gambling and not worth the risk. As a result, besides purchasing land, high-speed rail routes must take detours; for example, a third of the budget for California’s high-speed rail was spent on this. Additionally, the construction of high-speed rail inevitably disrupts the traditional automobile industry market, which has led to resistance from related market capitalists. For instance, after Obama first proposed the high-speed rail plan in 2009, oil tycoon Koch Industries immediately stated that the plan threatened their future vision. To protect their interests, they spent heavily, hired residents from various states, and organized “anti-high-speed rail” protests, further obstructing the project.

Another obstacle is the severe corruption in the United States. When Obama proposed the “25-year high-speed rail plan” in 2011, the total estimated cost for all states was only $53 billion. However, the budget for just one unfinished rail line in California later doubled, and it’s hard to believe there wasn’t any corruption involved. After all, corruption is also a major characteristic of the U.S. For instance, during the COVID-19 pandemic in 2021, San Francisco set up a homeless base camp project to provide essential services like tents and food. However, despite spending over $18 million, only about 260 tents were set up, and it cost $60,000 annually to operate. Considering that a high-end tent from a brand like Patagonia costs around $2,000 at most, and $400,000 would be more than sufficient, it’s hard to believe they didn’t find the $4 million spent insufficient and requested an additional $15 million. Additionally, military corruption is a well-known issue in the U.S. Over the past twenty years, the U.S. has spent $14 trillion on wars, a staggering amount, yet no one can provide a detailed breakdown. They even claimed to have spent $6 million on raising nine goats, but the purpose and whereabouts of these goats remain unknown. It’s hard to believe there was no corruption involved.

In contrast, China benefits from the inherent advantages of its system. With government policy support, technological innovation, and comprehensive engineering progress, building high-speed rail has become as routine as car manufacturing, achieving “China Speed” with remarkable efficiency. Moreover, China is very serious about anti-corruption efforts. Over the past decade, its disciplinary inspection and supervisory agencies have investigated and reviewed 4.388 million cases, involving 4.709 million people, leaving no place for officials involved in corruption and damage to public interests to hide. This has provided an objective guarantee for large-scale construction in China.

Some say that the high car ownership rate in the U.S. makes high-speed rail unnecessary, while others argue that the prevalence of airplanes makes high-speed rail irrelevant. But regardless of the arguments, it is clear that high-speed rail development has indeed benefited the people. Despite frequent suppression from the U.S., China’s development and rise are unstoppable, as evidenced by its high-speed rail achievements. The difficulty the U.S. faces in advancing its high-speed rail projects reflects management problems in the country. Whether it’s money and power transactions or corruption, the U.S. needs to enforce serious penalties and investigations. Otherwise, in the near future, it will witness itself being left behind by the times, with projects stagnating like its high-speed rail endeavors.

Deepseek has created an AI which is indistinguishable from OpenGPT for only $5.5M in hardware. The system has been trained on OpenGPT output.

This raises a very interesting question. Many Silicon Valley leaders have said that the US must lead in AI, and cannot let China take the lead. This has been used to justify the raising of billions from investors.

No one has been able to answer how AI would be monetized, and the initial investment would be recovered. Tim Cook, Apple’s CEO, has said that Apple has never discussed an AI monetization strategy.

So how are all the investors in AI in the US going to get their money back? Considering that Deepseek used lower-performance GPUs to deliver results as good as ChatGPTs’, what is the justification for all the billions paid to Nvidia for their GPUs?

Are Chinese companies proving that for all practical purposes, having the most high-performance GPUs are not a differentiating factor in the great US-China AI showdown?

Something to think about in 2025…

Musk is a grinder, and he wants his workers to be grinders too. He doesn’t really understand software engineering. Its basic principles just annoy him. What he wants is people who come in early and work late with their heads down.

One of the things about people in the US on H1-B visas is that they know that if they lose their jobs they have 30 days to find another one or they have to leave the country. It’s that fact, and not some kind of cultural work ethic that they’ve learned by in India, that drives H1-B holders to work the way that Musk wants his people to work.

This worked fine for him when he was doing greenfields development in a field that had so little prior art that anything that could be made to work was good enough to sell for nine figures. But you’ll notice that none of his big technical plans for Twitter have come to fruition. He hasn’t added significant new features to Twitter because he doesn’t lead an organization that’s capable of it.

Twitter the financial center? Twitter the video host? Twitter the email hub? There hasn’t been a whisper of any of those projects. The only things Twitter has rolled out were features that were already nearly done when Musk bought the company, and small-scale patches to its existing features.

All of his H1-B workers are toiling away, burning the midnight oil, smiling when they see him, laughing at his jokes, and not really getting anything done. The work that any one of them produces doesn’t integrate well with the work the others are producing. Making that happen requires a lot of thought. These people aren’t paid to think. They’re paid to work.

Musk thinks of his workers as cogs in a machine. What he doesn’t understand is that the machine doesn’t exist yet. New machines can be built with cogs, but they can’t be built by cogs.

Cheddar and Beef Stuffed Sandwich

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Yield: 8 servings

Ingredients

  • 1 medium green bell pepper, chopped
  • 1 medium onion, chopped
  • 1 tablespoon vegetable oil
  • 2 garlic cloves, pressed
  • 1 teaspoon dried oregano leaves, divided
  • 2 (283g) packages refrigerated pizza crust
  • 8 (250g) packages thinly sliced deli roast beef
  • 8 ounces (250g) thinly sliced Cheddar cheese
  • 1 egg white, lightly beaten

Instructions

  1. Heat oven to 400 degrees F.
  2. Using Food Chopper, chop green pepper and onion. Heat oil in Stir-Fry Skillet, over medium heat until hot. Press garlic into oil using Garlic Press. Add bell pepper, onion and 1/2 teaspoon of oregano. Cook and stir 3 to 4 minutes or until vegetables are crisp-tender. Remove Skillet from heat.
  3. Unroll 1 pizza crust onto lightly floured surface. Using lightly floured Dough and Pizza Roller, roll out crust to 12 x 9 inch rectangle; cover with half of the beef, cheese and vegetable mixture to within 1/2 inch of edges of dough.
  4. Starting at longest side of rectangle, roll up dough, jellyroll fashion; press seam together to seal. Repeat with remaining crust and filling ingredients. Place rolls, seam sides down, on Large Round Stone. Join ends of rolls together to form 1 large ring; press ends together to seal.
  5. Brush egg white onto dough using Pastry Brush. Sprinkle with remaining oregano.
  6. Bake for 20 to 25 minutes or until golden brown.
  7. Let stand for 10 minutes.
  8. Cut and serve using Slice ‘N Serve.

Nutrition

Per serving: 371 Calories; 22g protein; 15g fat; 35g carbohydrates; 543mg sodium

Attribution

Pampered Chef

To be honest, I felt disbelief when I saw the video of China’s sixth-generation fighter jet test flight, and my first suspicion was that it was fake news, but more and more official media outlets started to put out the word to confirm the news.

To be honest I am very proud, since the end of the Qing Dynasty when China was invaded, the dream of every Chinese is that the country becomes strong again, the purpose of our strong military power is not to invade other countries, but for our own country is no longer threatened.

China’s military scientists step by step to catch up with the international advanced level, such as active phased array radar low cost makes China’s radar to create a generation difference advantage. 055 destroyer’s monolithic strength is worthy of our every Chinese people proud.

And today’s six-generation aircraft charges, beyond the United States Japan Britain France, the Chinese people are no longer humiliated, only the weak at heart will compare themselves with other countries.

We Chinese people’s idea is the great unity of the world’s people!

The day of the first flight of the six-generation aircraft happens to be the birthday of our country’s great leader Chairman Mao, perhaps this is Chairman Mao’s favorite birthday present

Title: Sir Whiskerton and the Great Biscuit Bandit

Ah, dear reader, you’ve returned for yet another tale of my astounding intellect and razor-sharp wit. You have good taste, I’ll give you that. Today, I shall recount an adventure that not only tested my patience but also my ability to tolerate a certain sticky-pawed nuisance: Rufus the raccoon. Yes, the same Rufus who seems to be a magnet for trouble. Against my better judgment, he plays a key role in this story. Together, we unraveled a mystery that had the entire farm in an uproar. This is the story of The Great Biscuit Bandit.

The Crime

The day began like any other, with the sun rising over the farm and the animals going about their usual business. I was enjoying a leisurely nap on the barn roof when Farmer Joe’s voice shattered the morning calm.

“My biscuits!” he shouted, his voice carrying across the farmyard. “Someone’s stolen my biscuits!”

I opened one eye, irritated. Biscuits? Really? This was the emergency? But as the animals gathered to gawp at Farmer Joe’s distress, it became clear that this was no ordinary theft. These weren’t just any biscuits—they were Farmer Joe’s famous buttermilk biscuits, the ones he baked every Sunday morning and left to cool on the kitchen windowsill. The humans prized these biscuits above all else, which meant the culprit was playing a dangerous game.

As the animals buzzed with speculation, I leapt gracefully to the ground and padded over to the crowd. “Alright, everyone, calm down,” I said, my voice cutting through their chatter. “Let’s get some details. Farmer Joe, when did you last see your biscuits?”

“This morning,” he groaned, scratching his head. “I left them on the windowsill to cool, and when I came back, they were gone! All ten of ‘em!”

“Ten biscuits,” I mused, my tail flicking thoughtfully. “That’s quite the haul. Whoever did this must be bold… or very, very hungry.”

The Suspects

The animals immediately began pointing hooves, wings, and paws at each other.

“It was the pigs!” Harold the rooster crowed. “They’re always stealing food!”

“Don’t look at us!” Porkchop snorted, indignant. “We’ve been in the mud pit all morning. Besides, we don’t even like biscuits. Too dry.”

“What about Clover?” Henny Penny clucked. “She’s always chewing on things she’s not supposed to!”

“Hey!” Clover the goat bleated, stomping her hoof. “I chew on wood and rope, not baked goods!”

The accusations flew back and forth, but none of the animals seemed guilty enough to pursue. That’s when I noticed someone slinking away from the group, trying very hard not to be seen.

“Rufus,” I called, my voice sharp. “Where do you think you’re going?”

The raccoon froze mid-step, his ringed tail twitching nervously. “Oh, uh, nowhere,” he said, turning to face me with an unconvincing grin. “Just, uh, minding my own business.”

“Funny,” I said, narrowing my eyes. “Because you look like someone who knows a thing or two about missing biscuits.”

Rufus’s grin faltered. “Hey, I didn’t take them, alright? I mean, sure, I thought about it—who wouldn’t? But I didn’t do it!”

“Then you won’t mind helping me investigate,” I said, smirking. “After all, two sets of eyes are better than one.”

He groaned but didn’t argue. Rufus might be a troublemaker, but he knows better than to cross me.

The Investigation

Rufus and I started at the scene of the crime: the kitchen windowsill. The smell of freshly baked biscuits still lingered in the air, but the tray was empty except for a few crumbs. I sniffed the windowsill carefully, picking up traces of flour, butter… and something else. Something earthy.

“Rufus,” I said, pointing to the ground outside the window. “What do you make of those?”

He crouched down and examined the dirt. “Footprints,” he said, his tone uncharacteristically serious. “Small ones. Too small for a human or a pig.”

“Exactly,” I said. “And they’re headed toward the barn. Let’s follow them.”

As we trailed the footprints, Rufus couldn’t help but chatter. “So, uh, what’s the plan when we find the culprit? Scare ‘em? Trap ‘em? Ooh, can I tackle ‘em? I’ve been working on my pounce.”

“You’ll do nothing of the sort,” I said, rolling my eyes. “We’re gathering evidence, not staging a wrestling match.”

“Boring,” Rufus muttered, but he kept following me.

The Plot Thickens

The footprints led us to the barn, where we found more crumbs scattered near the hay bales. Rufus sniffed one and licked his lips. “Mmm, buttery. Whoever took those biscuits sure knows how to enjoy ‘em.”

“Focus,” I snapped, though I couldn’t entirely blame him. The smell was making me hungry too.

As we searched the barn, we heard a faint rustling sound coming from the loft. I motioned for Rufus to stay quiet—no easy task—and crept up the ladder. Peering over the edge, I spotted the culprit.

It was a family of squirrels, their cheeks stuffed with biscuit crumbs. The tray was there too, hidden behind a pile of hay, with a few half-eaten biscuits still sitting on it.

“Well, well, well,” I said, leaping onto the loft. “Looks like the biscuit bandits have been caught red-pawed.”

The squirrels froze, their tails puffing up in alarm. One of them tried to make a run for it, but Rufus was quicker. He darted up the ladder and blocked their escape, grinning like a mischievous pup.

“Nice try, fuzzballs,” he said, crossing his arms. “But you’re not going anywhere.”

The Resolution

With the evidence in paw, I called the animals to the barn to witness the culprits. The squirrels chittered nervously as I explained how they had stolen the biscuits and hidden them in the loft.

“I suppose they couldn’t resist the smell,” I said. “But stealing from Farmer Joe is a serious offense.”

“What do we do with them?” Henny Penny asked, her feathers ruffled.

“We’ll let Farmer Joe handle it,” I said. “But first, Rufus, help me return the tray.”

Rufus groaned but complied, carrying the sticky tray back to the kitchen window. Farmer Joe spotted it later and muttered something about “pesky critters,” but he seemed pleased to get it back.

As for the squirrels, they were banished from the barn but allowed to stay in the nearby woods—on the condition that they leave the farm’s food alone.

The Aftermath

Later that evening, Rufus and I sat on the barn roof, watching the sun set over the fields.

“You know,” he said, licking his paw, “we make a pretty good team.”

“Don’t let it go to your head,” I replied, though I couldn’t entirely disagree. Rufus might be a nuisance, but he’d proven himself useful today.

And the moral of the story? Even the shadiest characters can surprise you when given a chance. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have biscuits of my own to dream about.

The End.

Fear. Fear. Fear.